hello my lovely pastel goth indie fashionistas! xoxoxo
2day i twinned it with the bestie!
well actually twinned it with the girlfriend
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anyway, i wore a lovely vintage-inspired pastel blue dress. it was very light and lovely and girly and fun and summery!
image cred 2 forever 21
amanda wore this yellow thingy from modcloth (so vintage indie hipster boho chic!)
i think it was on sale when she bought it so i can't get pictures boo ):
but we still looked super bright and summery and fun and indie girly boho pastel grunge hipster chic!
... okay no i can't do this anymore.
that was me attempting to parody ~*~*fashin*~*~ blogs, but i really do not want anymore
but i did wear that dress today
i guess now i'll just talk about my day okay then
so today was an okay day, at least at school
nothing special, nothing too bad
in theatre, we're doing two-person scenes so my partner and i are doing a scene from bbc sherlock
that was pretty cool
i also made brownies last night for my aforementioned girlfriend (whose name is amanda by the way)
i have what's called an open period, which means that i have no seventh period, so i get to go home early every other day
and i don't have swim practice today, which is cool
we are having a pasta party for swim though, which should be great because who doesn't like pasta am i right
right now i'm listening to coldplay and blogging when i should be studying ya know the usual
also today at school, i discovered that you can hang out in the practice rooms (if they're unlocked), which are these closet-sized rooms with pianos in the music building
they're quite nice, and i hope they're left unlocked more often
my 11 month anniversary with amanda was on the 25th. a month more, and we'll have been together a year. and i was thinking about it last night, and it hit me that i've been in love with one person for nearly three years now.
one person.
three years.
it's just so surreal.
for some explanation, i realised my sexuality early on. i knew i was at least bisexual in middle school, and in about 7th or 8th grade, i fell in love with amanda.
of course, she rejected me, but we were still friends, though she would make a huge deal of pointing out that she was "damn straight" and we weren't a couple.
once in 8th grade, my friend asked her if she liked anyone
she replied, "no, all the guys here are just friends to me."
then she continued, "and the girls too."
and i remember the feeling of my heart dropping into my stomach
because there was at least the possibility that she could love a girl
but that girl wasn't me.
i was only a "friend."
of course, things changed for the better, but i still find it miraculous that she loves me
there is a human being on the earth
that i fell in love with
and somehow, miraculously, she fell in love with me too
if love isn't the great miracle of human conciousness, i don't know what is.
okay.
i think i'll stop here.